This has not been a great week. Layoffs happened. I received my contract renewal letter for next year, which should be great news. But there is still a possibility of more cuts to come, so I can’t rest easy yet. Probably can’t rest easy until September 1st, when the next school year starts. But I’m trying to put it out of my mind. And we lost 2 teachers in my building. One of them is my most favorite teacher on earth, and I’m devastated about it. Literally, I’ve bawled more than once since I heard the news. She is one of those teachers made out of magic, who takes tough kids and turns them into children with self-respect and success. I want to be her when I grow up. Now she’s going, and I still have no idea what will happen to me between now and September.

So I’ve kind of been in hiding this weekend. I skipped a meeting of the Manhattan Modern Quilt Guild because I needed some downtime today. I’ve been exhausted waiting to hear my fate the past couple of weeks, it’s definitely taken its toll. I was supposed to go to a baby shower tomorrow morning, but I’m skipping that, too. Especially since the baby quilt I tried to make for said shower is just full of bad vibes. I cut the backing and batting incorrectly, forgetting to leave room on all sides for the quilting (how on earth did I forget that?). I tore a hole in it while ripping out stitches I’d messed up. And for some reason the quilting made it buckle, so it’s not lying smooth. And I wasn’t even really thrilled with the quilt top, which had odd fabrics I threw together and some uneven cuts.

I’m not sure what it is about this quilt top I’m just not into. I don’t have any pictures of it once I mangled it, I’m trying to decide if the top is worth salvaging. It’s for a baby girl, and I’m not sure if it’s the giant log cabin that I don’t like or the fabrics. I’m going to try and send something off this week to make up for not going tomorrow, but I don’t know what. This was an experiment, and I don’t think it worked.